CAPTIVE

I sat in the cold, stone room for what seemed like ages anticipating their arrival.  Curiosity and nerves were competing for first place in my typical over-emotional state.  Being a ‘feeler’ can be exhausting.  It’s difficult to explain what a typical daily emotional roller coaster a ‘feeler’ must ride.  I can go from crying tearsContinue reading “CAPTIVE”

GENEROSITY

If you know my children, you know that my oldest child is spirited. Lively. Animated. At times his impulsivity overrides his conscious and he can be intrusive. Parenting him can be difficult. We both like to be in charge, and there are hard days. And subsequently, he has taught me infinite lessons about mothering, aboutContinue reading “GENEROSITY”

RUN

When I made my ’40 before 40′ bucket list, it must have been a warm day.  Warm, but not hot.  Productive, but not busy.  And I must have felt good and optimistic and happy and energetic and rested.  ‘Delirium’ is the only thing I can figure, because I included on number 16, “Run a 5k”.Continue reading “RUN”

THANKS

When I was young, one of my favorite books was Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day.  I was a serious child.  I identified with Alexander on somewhat of a regular basis, as he and I both had two brothers.  So I anticipated the worst, pretty much all the time.  I remainedContinue reading “THANKS”

AUTUMN

I knew I was getting older the last time I went to Forever21 and the sales associate asked me if I was lost and then called me ‘ma’am’.  I quickly darted out of the store, pretending like I had wandered in by mistake. Then, I heard on K-Love that women who dye their hair blondContinue reading “AUTUMN”

BECOME

I remember being in the concrete driveway of your old house. You had effortlessly set up an entire play land of activities with hula hoops, giant homemade bubble wands, a crazy sprinkler, and a little kiddy pool. You were quietly keeping order while sun bathing, and eventually you stood up, picked up a hula hoop,Continue reading “BECOME”

SHINE

My phone calendar starting buzzing yesterday morning at 5:50 with all the reminders I had. ‘Send salty snack with Zachary.’ ‘Send cookies/drinks with Josiah’ ‘Nolan and Josiah wear orange for Anti-bullying campaign.’ ‘Zachary dresses up for class party – nothing scary’ I have to include really specific notes like ‘nothing scary’ for obvious reasons. WeContinue reading “SHINE”